It's been a year. Without Olivia.

i'm very busy with thinking about olivia,  
planning "events" and things,                                                   
but .. not much time to have some calm & peace ...                                                                                                              
i think i will postpone throwing the ashes...                                                                                                                   
maybe there will be someday some time to do this slowly, quietly...                                                                                             
but ...                                                                                                                                                         
the decision can still wait..                                                                                                                                   
one whole day...                                                                                                                                                
or maybe there will never be a good moment -- but so what??                                                                                                     
it doesn't matter any more anyway!!                                                                                                                             
and why force it? why force things? why force anything??                       
I made a tattoo today.

Based on my own design - modified Yin-Yang symbol: in every darkness there is a light heart, and in every lightness there is a dark heart.

Painful memories of today's date one year ago, made Olivia in one more way a part of me forever.


Thanks for the tattoo, Hollywood Mark!

posted on Friday, January 16, 2009 9:10 PM